My Journey is Not Always My Own

10 June 2010

I got up this morning planning my day and the things I had to do; getting gas was the first thing.  As I drive around the corner from my house I see 50 people standing in the road… The road is flooded. It has in the past flooded in this place and after all it has been raining for 40 days and 40 nights!

I get closer and see it’s deeper and wider and extremely muddy and I’ve got to pick up my son from the hospital….what to do? I go home get DrB’s vehicle thinking I’ll take the Mainline (logging) road to get out.

I live at the end of a road and there is really only one way in unless they open Mainline when it floods. I asked someone if they know if the Mainline was open…. No, it’s not open, it’s washed out! I charge ahead through the muddy mess with DrB’s vehicle.  On the other side the county guys tell me a beaver dam washed out on the Mainline road.  A beaver dam?

In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9flood

Feeling Blessed 27April 2010

The window washers came this morning and I took time to smell the roses!

The past few days I have seen in my yard; a small herd of female elk, Erkle (my pet elk), a deer with two fawns, the black bear on video in my trash :-), a wide variety of bunnies, and a family of raccoons.

I look IMG_1023out my clean windows to a gorgeous view of Mt Si and the cliffs are dotted with the mountain goats, there are eagles and hawks not to mention the Canadian geese, the robins, the stellar jays, the nuthatches and the black capped chickadees. There are herons in the marshes along the low areas.

Sunday we plucked two little frogs out of the pool and to be so small they sure have a loud song!

I drive 4 miles to the office and I pass pastures with horses, lamas, alpacas, cows with little calves, one pasture even has a group of Texas longhorns, I cross two branches of the Snoqualmie River and quite often I see the elk are crossing. As I drive past a large field of cows in the middle stands one lone coyote looking around…I don’t believe he could take any of them on!

All this surrounded by towering 70 ft douglas firs, cedars and evergreen trees. Blooming rhodies and azaleas, flowering plum trees full of pink blossoms and hundreds of tulips and daffodils…

and I say to myself… What a Wonderful World

Marriage

Written October 8, 2009

I am not claiming to have all the answers to making a relationship work but here some of things I have discovered about Marriage. (Mine with DrB especially)

Twenty-seven years together and I was twenty-seven when we met. Half my life…amazing.

1+ prior to marriage, 26 years married, 18 years working 15′ feet apart!

~ Having common goals, common core beliefs and common values is important.

~ Honesty is important.

~ Some things are always going to be and it is better not to make a big deal out of the little stuff.

~ It’s OK for me to leave the toilet roll on top of the holder and it’s OK if he wants to put in on.

~ I am not necessarily wrong if I don’t agree with him and vise versa.

~ Expect to disagree.

~ Learn to recognize when things are getting too tense and back off.

~ Knowing that your friends that said you’d never last, were wrong is somewhat gratifying. Stay away from negative people they are quite often wrong.

~ Men need some space (I guess DrB gets some as he travels around) but even so if he wants to go fishing, boating, pursue his own interest it doesn’t mean he doesn’t care about me. And we don’t always have to do everything together. Followed by…

~ Trust is important.

~ Jealously is ugly… (unless of course it is done lovingly; like occasionally reminding him of the time he went to the movies with Marleah)

~ It is important to keep loving each other, when one or the other is being unlovable. We have both been recipients and givers of this.

~ The advice to “never go to bed angry” isn’t necessarily true. Sometimes getting a good night’s sleep can put a new perspective on the issue and for sure the sun will come out tomorrow.

~ At work, shutting the door IS sometimes necessary.

~ Dancing in the kitchen when no one is watching is nice. =)

~ Sharing bites of each others meals is good, letting me finish his beer or letting him finish my ice cream…also good.

~ Understanding that I can object to his business decisions, but knowing that he has the right to make them whether they turn out right or wrong.

~ Laughing at the fact that I know the ending to all of those old jokes.

~ Spontaneous expressions of love are more meaningful and sweet than the ones that are given because they are expected on specific dates.

~ The simple routines and traditions that we’ve built make the world seem not so crazy, like him putting coffee on the bed stand every morning or me washing his face with a warm cloth every night, him making breakfast on weekends, or me cutting his hair in my nightie.

~ Strangely enough we always more united and close when we are under attack from the outside.

~ Passion may fade but real companionship, commitment and love is everlasting..

~ Twenty-seven years goes by faster than you think…

My most treasured Valentine card from DrB wasn’t a card at all but a letter that ends this way…

Slowly, many we love leave us. Then one day we wake up and our dearest is gone too.
“That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we’re walkin a hand should slip free

I’ll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me….”

But having loved, we are not alone. We still talk to one another however one of cannot hear the answers.
At least not out loud. If we look around, we see the signs that, once known, love never dies.

Quote Lyrics from Bruce Springsteen song .  “If I Should Fall Behind”

From My Southern Upbringing

Originally penned 28 July 2009

Today I was making cards from some notes I took down from above my Mother’s kitchen sink. The notes I removed were worn and tattered…probably had been there 20 years or more. I took down only two that I noticed while I washing dishes, they were just barely holding on by two pieces of dried cracked cellophane tape and the paper was brown and cracked with water marks where she, Mother, no doubt had straightened them out to read them as she washed dishes over the years.

I thought I’d bring them home and make two little printed cards with the verses she wrote, laminate them and send them back to her.

As I was making the cards, I was reminded of the notes that were always above the kitchen sink when I was a little girl washing dishes. Then one of the verses popped into my head, then another, then another… Below is a collection of those sayings/poems… When you get to the bottom at the Little Orphan Annie verse, it may become clear why I am afraid of the dark.

Southern Up-bringing, a little like southern religion, it invokes fire and brimstone and generally PUTS the fear of something into you!

Thank God for Dirty Dishes

author unknown

Thank God for Dirty Dishes,

They have a tale to tell.

While others are going hungry,

We are eating well.

With home and health and happiness,

I no cause to fuss.

For by this stack of evidence,

God’s been very good to us.

I LOVE YOU MOTHER

“I love you, Mother,” said little John. Then forgetting his work, his cap went on. And he was off to the garden swing, Leaving his Mother the wood to bring.

“I love you, Mother,” said little Nell. “I love you more than tongue can tell.” “Then she teased and pouted half the day, Till Mother rejoiced when she went to play.

“I love you, Mother,” said little Fan. “Today I’ll help you all I can.” To the cradle then she did softly creep, And rocked the baby till it fell asleep.

Then stepping softly, she took the broom, And swept the floor, and dusted the room.Busy and happy all day was she, Helpful and cheerful as child could be.

“I love you, Mother,” again they said. Three little children, going to bed. How do you think that Mother guessed Which of them really loved her best?

The Little Orphan Annie

James Whitcomb Riley

Little Orphan Annie’s come to my house to stay. To wash the cups and saucers up and brush the crumbs away. To shoo the chickens from the porch and dust the hearth and sweep, and make the fire and bake the bread to earn her board and keep. While all us other children, when the supper things is done, we sit around the kitchen fire and has the mostest fun, a listening to the witch tales that Annie tells about and the goblins will get ya if ya don’t watch out!

Once there was a little boy who wouldn’t say his prayers, and when he went to bed at night away up stairs, his mammy heard him holler and his daddy heard him bawl, and when they turned the covers down, he wasn’t there at all! They searched him in the attic room and cubby hole and press and even up the chimney flu and every wheres, I guess, but all they ever found of him was just his pants and round-abouts and the goblins will get ya if ya don’t watch out!!

Once there was a little girl who always laughed and grinned and made fun of everyone, of all her blood and kin, and once when there was company and old folks was there, she mocked them and she shocked them and said, she didn’t care. And just as she turned on her heels and to go and run and hide, there was two great big black things a standing by her side. They snatched her through the ceiling fore she knew what shes about, and the goblins will get ya if ya don’t watch out!!

When the night is dark and scary, and the moon is full and creatures are a flying and the wind goes Whoooooooooo, you better mind your parents and your teachers fond and dear, and cherish them that loves ya, and dry the orphans tears and help the poor and needy ones that cluster all about, or the goblins will get ya if ya don’t watch out!!!

OH MY, I think I’ll be good today!!