Yes! I am Woman

“I can do anything” I even repaired my washing machine that would not drain or spin. I looked up the error code it said the drain was either clogged or there was something wrong with the pump.

With a little held from a Youtube video I took the back off, took apart the drains —- nothing in the drain. Took the pump off (by myself) and found there was a quarter in the pump. How it got in there, I don’t know because it was wider than the inlet and outlet.

I was trying to decide how to disassemble the pump when my friend Ross showed up, he took the top off the pump and removed the quarter. Then I reassembled everything!

Cheers to all the many hands-on women out there who overcome challenges and do what they got to do to make their way.

I was very pleased; for one, the washer is intimidating and number two, I had to use real tools not a butter knife!!

Feeling empowered!

Now I’m going to do the laundry.

Villains and Superheros

TOXIC MEGACOLON sounds like it should be the evil villain in a sci-fi movie, but it is much more evil than that.

The first time I heard this term was in May 2013.  Someone I love was in the the hospital with Pancreatitis and a severe flair of Colitis.  Steroids were being administered to fight the inflammation and disease but to no avail.  I look back now and realize how totally clueless I was about the dangers and horrors of this disease.

After steroids, next stop is Biologics… “Biologics are genetically-engineered proteins derived from human genes. They are designed to inhibit specific components of the immune system that play pivotal roles in fueling inflammation…”  The message was always coming from the medical team…”you should be feeling better, start eating, you’ll be home soon.”  They seemed puzzled the pain was persisting and at times, they seemed totally indifferent and doubtful about the degree of pain ‌involved.

One begins to feel like the paranoid person in a horror movie that keeps telling people that there is a monster outside but no one believes them.  Until they see for themselves the villain,  TOXIC MEGACOLON.

Suddenly everything changes, all the big guns are brought in because it is “life threatening” ~ surgery is required IMMEDIATELY if not sooner.  One does not even have the time to find out what this horrible villain is….it just is and it’s BAD.

How long does it take to recover from an encounter with TMC?  A long time.  They removed the offending villain…but it was dying anyway.  The goal was not to let it take you with it.

IBD, both Crohn’s and ulcerative colitis, is a horrible disease.  A crappy disease and it can turn to a deadly disease.  A fact I totally missed. We need a cure, because removing one’s colon no matter how big a villain it has become, is not a cure. It doesn’t stop the pain, the fatigue, the overabundant need to visit the loo, the other side effect that come with it, inflamed  joints, skin disorders, pyoderma gangrenosum, liver issues, and pancreatitis which is related in some unknown way.

In contrast to this villain, there are many Superheros; they raise funds, bring awareness, offer comfort and encouragement to others.  I am thankful for all the SUPERHEROS I have met in this battle for a cure. We will continue until this villain is defeated.

Reevaluting

Feeling very philosophical on this flight home from Dallas.  It was a journey of love and devotion with uncertain results and conclusions.  

However, after  a couple of Bloody Mary’s which always seem to  taste so superb in-flights my seatmate shows me an article that says there is a scientific reason they taste better at 30,000 feet.  

Anyway back to my sentimental musings… I just watched “Collateral Beauty” with Will Smith.  Oh my gosh… now I am boo-hooing in my seat and those around me are thinking I should have skipped the Bloody Mary’s (the very good 30,000 feet ones).  

The movie is a real heart string puller about life, love and death and time… all of which I have given a lot of thought to in recent years. 

Which once again brings me back to a quote from Lee Cowin from four years ago…

[This tragedy] serves as reminder that “we don’t get to set life’s clock.” and that while we all think we have a tomorrow to say whatever we need to say, sometimes tomorrow never comes.

Our Little Town

IMG_1782And…. people wonder why there is so much divisiveness, anger, and unrest in our country? Look no further than “Our Little Town.”

In a nutshell, a female someone parked in a “restaurant only” parking spot and went to a movie next door. She claims she intended to eat at the restaurant following the movie. Well, when she exited the movie theatre her car had been towed. She claims that when she confronted the restaurateur he yelled at her and was unkind. (Something tells me she might have been a bit excited too, but doesn’t say.)

The female movie goer makes a post on a town blog and then on Yelp. Following her post, hundreds of the townspeople have taken on her offense and began telling people not to patronize the restaurant. Even more people started relaying awful experiences they had at said restaurant which previously had mostly rave reviews.

In the restaurateur’s defense, another group started posting that they love the place. They tell it is clearly marked parking is for the restaurant only and perhaps the movie goer should have checked with restauranteur before leaving her vehicle for an hour and a half.

So here it is… people have taken sides in the debate and are attacking each other over something that did not even involve them, they did not witness, they know not all the facts and really is inconsequential in the bigger picture of things.

Finally, one can keep this little fact in mind… “Our Little Town” ~ North Bend, WA – the home of Twin Peaks! A show described as quirky, surreal, melodramatic, supernatural, and with dubious activities.

New episodes coming soon on your TV and just down the street.

Twin Peaks Teaser Billboards Go Up, Revealing Nothing But Cherry Pie (At First Sight)

Life is a Mystery

The timing of connections and losses are the fine intricate dance of life.

Life is fragile – knowing that nothing about tomorrow is guaranteed.

Why does one door open as another closes? What reasoning keeps them closed until the opportunity is past?

There is a  familial connection through our DNA that binds are hearts tenderly with a golden thread.

Know that the paths which are directed by God are ones with design and purpose. Embrace those along that way.

We may never understand these tragedies of life. These are the mysteries of life that are only God’s to know.

Trish
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Devine Protection

I’m claiming divine protection here for myself and my coworker, CJ —

Last Wednesday I was in a rush to get out the door for a trip to Denver. When CJ arrived at work she told me there were two young women sitting at the bottom of the stairs. She went down and talk to them and they said they were just trying to stay out of the rain while waiting for a ride.

Well an hour later they were still there wandering around; they’d come into the office and asked for money. Their original story had changed — it was all very suspicious. I asked CJ to call the police because I thought maybe they might be some young women that were being targeted for sex trafficking.

CJ said they’d claimed they had arrived via bus from a town nearby and they just needed a ride back they wanted to go to an area about 75 miles south. I told CJ I’m heading to the airport I could drop them off in the next town over.

Both CJ and another coworker strongly urged me not to do it.

Well only a few hour later the news was that two women in Town had carjacked someone and caused a serious accident.

Today we find out it was the two women outside the office. They had stolen a truck from another town and had guns that were stolen as well, after hanging around our office for two hours they went down to the retirement centre and tried to carjack an elderly lady.
The manager at the retirement centre came to her aid and was attacked as well. They fled in the truck at a high rate of speed they caused a head on collision with another car and were apprehended by the police.

An officer came to the office today and we are going to provide a video for them.

So as I said, I believe CJ and I were both divinely protected and I believe CJ’s straight talking and compassionate but firm kindness kept us from harm.

Thankful

 

Vilified! HA

Really? Meryl thinks she is part of the most vilified segments in American Society? Hollywood? the media?

What about the military, the police… Muslims or Christians and people with traditional values?

You have a much too grandiose view of yourselves, Hollywood… without you, I have more to do than watch mixed martial arts and sports.

I can watch the sunrise or sunset, I look out into space at the thousands of stars, watch the birds in the park or the wildlife all around me. I can go to the park, I can visit the mountains, I can entertain friends, I can plant a garden, I can visit the sick, I can travel….

Pat each other on the back at your exclusive award shows and tell each other how great you are. You are no wiser, smarter or more talented than a lot of other Americans, you just have different talents. Can you design bridges, transplant organs, build airplanes, write software or any of of the thousands of skills and talents the rest of America has been trained to do?

Foreigners? I noticed you grouped yourself with them. Yes, some are unfairly judged or treated but the majority of law abiding, hard working people from other countries are respected and welcomed into this country.

I married one. I have many others in my circle of family and friends.

Time to throw out my copy of “Out of Africa”

No Epilady but…

When I saw Christmas 1989, clueless husband and Vhs, my mind and memories were immediately thrust back in time.

For those of you who know DrB you understand the relationship we have of silly banter and nonsense that is part of our lives. To be such a brilliant man, it is if he takes too much pleasure in playing the absent-minded male. Also he will use humor to weasel his way out of things he really doesn’t want to do rather than just say that he rather not do it.

Christmas eve 1989 I had a newborn two day old son. Although he was a whooping 9+ lbs his appetite was not quite up to the abundance of milk my body was producing.

My dear husband was sent on a mission to buy an electric breast pump. I wait patiently at home for the device that was sure to bring my relief.

Three hours later he returns from the store bags in hand. When he comes in the door he is excited to show me his purchase. Imagine my shock and disappointment when he pulls out….
A video camera!!

For starters he obviously went to the wrong type of store and secondly, I think he really wasn’t interested in asking anyone about where to find a breast pump.

At the time I was not amused but it makes me chuckle to think about it and although that video camera brought no relief, it did provide lots of memories.

Day is Done

“Day is done; gone the sun, from the lakes, from the hills, from the sky. All is was well, safely rest, God is nigh. “

Well here we are on election eve. I voted but I still find myself afraid she/he will or she/he won’t!

What an awful place to find one’s self. No certainty or strong assurance in either candidate.

Praying that win or lose the hype of all the past year is just hype. That the negative about either candidate does not ring true once they enter office. Praying that they they will enter office with solemn commitment to serve all of the people with a humility and an understanding of the great responsibility the people have entrusted to them.

Praying that we have not become so far divided that we cannot connect and find a mutual respect and understanding with one another.

Finally, I am praying that God is indeed nigh, that he has his eye and blessing still on us. That we will remain the beacon of light that draws people from all corners of the earth to our shores.

The Purple Heart

August 7, National Purple Heart Day. A day to honor those who sacrificed for our freedoms; those wounded or killed in combat. For the wounded, some wounds heal quicker than others.

Today I honor my son Aaron. Wounded in the Battle of Mogadishu, October 3-4, 1993.

Receiving a call from the Department of Defense is something that is burned into your mind. Mine came after days of watching live action on CNN watching as young men were being dragged through the streets of Mogadishu. I found myself trying to determine if it was my son in these scenes. The truth is they were all my sons, they all wore US uniforms, they were all oh so young. Mine, just a little over a year earlier, had a midnight curfew; now he was one of America’s finest defending the weak and fighting for the lives of the poor and starving in Somalia. They were there to prevent starving and assist in the distribution of food that was being hijacked by warlords in the area.

imageThe Purple Heart, “The Purple Heart medal represents courage, sacrifice, commitment and ‘heart.’

Thank you Aaron for your service then, and now, to defend the weak, uphold the law, for everyday putting others lives before your own.

Be safe out there 💜

GOOD NEWS & BLESSINGS

The king’s heart is like channels of water in the hand of the Lord; He turns it wherever He wishes.
Proverbs 21:1 (NASB)

This verse is in the article link below for AISH and it set me thinking on my own advise from 2009 and I think I need to heed it again.

 

Mar 14 2009
Good News
Today I live in America and it is still the place where people from all over the world want to come to fulfill their dreams.

Are we always right? No
Have we been Blessed? Yes
Even today, do we have more food, shelter, jobs,opportunities, & wealth than most of the world? Yes

Stop complaining, Start Living…

Stop listening to the news… it seems they are now thriving on “FEAR MONGERING”

Go help someone.
Invite friends over to dinner.
Go to your place of worship.
Be thankful for all that we have.
Find “your” belief in the American Dream that others risk their life to come here for.

The sky is not falling and Americans aren’t a nation of Chicken Littles. We are people that face challenges straight on, keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep going.

AND AGAIN…turn off the TV and the NEWS…. it is depressing, it is brainwashing, it kills your motivation, it makes youwant to give up.

YOU WILL BE MUCH HAPPIER!!!

Trish

Perception

All the drama when you’re young, seems like nonsense when you’re old.

All the battles that were worth fighting, can turn your dreams to mold.

They seem so important when endless seem your days…

…but you’ll regret when you’re older and your passion has lost its blaze.

If only you could know, what the older ones have learned.

You would change your heart and thoughts, before good bridges you have burned.

You’d understand these thoughts, that seem so Important in your brain,

Seem really rather crazy,  when you’re older and reasoning is more sane.

It only goes to show you that the knowledge when you’re young,

Cannot compare to the age of wisdom, when your song is nearly sung.

©️2016 Trish ❤️

Privacy and Compassion and MY VOICE

Here are my thoughts regarding all the meme’s showing up with wording that states ” Porta-potties are gender-neutral” and  “what’s the problem with allowing biological men (who identify as women) into women’s restrooms?”  There are also comments about living in a home with a gender-neutral bathrooms all your life and it never hurt you.

Well that is very true and I have no problem with porta-potties or private gender neutral restrooms. We have 5 private gender neutral restrooms at our office and the department store in the next town over has only one restroom for both men and women. I have used it many times, after men and before men, no problem

dec17However, there are deeper issues, and unintended and under-recognized victims of this issue — they are women of sexual abuse.

Opening up locker rooms, changing rooms and less than private multi-stalled restrooms to a transgender man or any man who claims that he relates as transgender person, causes an extreme emotional burden on these women.

It is only recently (within the past 10 or 15 years) women have started to come out and talk about the sexual abuse they experienced at the hands of men. Many experienced these acts when they were children. They felt helpless, without a voice and in an age where children were to be seen and not heard, they were silenced. For these women there are many triggers that set them into an emotional tailspin.

I know because I am a sexual abuse survivor. I was nearly 50 years old before I told anyone. It is an emotional burden I do not want to carry and I cannot control the things that trigger me into these emotional spirals. The anxiety it can bring is almost paralyzing.

In an effort to be compassionate to the transgender community, do not forget these women who have just recently found their voice.

There has to be medium ground somewhere and I think unfettered access to women’s locker rooms and public bathrooms that do not offer completely private stalls (all the way to the floor and ceiling) is not the answer.

Without these considerations we are again being told we should be unseen, unheard and unrecognized.

A Hero to Many…

…especially to me. Although I am proud of him all the time, he is always willing to go the extra mile. I love him and he loves me and that’s the way it will always be.

Subject: Employee of the Month – February 2016 Importance: High

Congratulations to Detective A A for being chosen by staff to be the Employee of the Month for February 2016. You are being recognized for displaying great perseverance and determination in a missing person’s case that was originally from Oklahoma and involved a juvenile female who had started an on-line relationship with a 28-year-old male from Thornton.

Upon speaking to the juvenile’s parents, Detective AA obtained information that the mother and missing female were speaking over Facebook messages and verified that she was at a location believed to be within the City of Thornton. It was first thought that the juvenile was at the house of the mother to the male suspect. Upon speaking with the parents again, he had the mother ask for landmarks around where the female was staying and found out there was a 7-11 near the residence she was staying at. It was then (he) figured out that the (suspect’s) mother’s residence was near a 7-11. Upon initial contact at the residence the female occupant refused to let officers in and her story didn’t match up. After that a message from the juvenile was sent to the mother stating the police had been at the house she was located in and a search warrant was executed. The missing female was found inside the residence and reunited with her family.

Congratulations again on your well-deserved recognition.

Pattie Kay’s Day

PKBSt Patty’s Day is here again and that means only one thing… Yes, I’m gonna probably going to wear green and No, I’m not going to have green beer, but I am going to be thinking about my old friend all day.

It was in 3rd grade when I moved to a new elementary school across town that I met Pattie! My last name began with an ‘A’ and hers began with a ‘B’ so of course we always sat next to each other in class because in those days everybody was seated alphabetically. I often wondered about the people whose names begin with ‘W’ and they had to sit in the back of the class. Could they see well enough? Hear well enough? Somebody should do a study of people with A, B and C last names to see if they got better grades!

Pattie lived a little north of town and I lived even further north of town. I think the development she lived in was called Holly Hills and I loved it!!! Beautiful brick homes with and manicured lawns. The best part was at Christmas time, the whole neighborhood had the same decorations in their yards; it was a perfectly decorated winter wonderland… with no snow (south Texas). All the people living in Holly Hills put up big candy canes and lollipops in their front yards and they all had lights around all the roof-lines. It was beautiful, uniform and perfect.

Truth is I always used to envy Pattie, she had her own room, she was tiny and petite, pretty, an only child and it was always quiet in her home. We were also in the Girl Scouts together, my mother was a troop leader and we often did things together.

I left Texas just before the end of eighth-grade and moved to many different places but I never forgot my friend Pattie. Every year without fail, when St Patty’s Day rolled around, I would think of her; I wondered where she was and and how her life turned out.

In 1997 ‘Classmates’ had been around a few years and I joined. I searched what would have been my graduating class of 1974. Pattie was on there and I sent her an email. Months past, months became a year and I never heard anything from her. Then about a year and a half after I first wrote her, I got an email. She’d been without a computer for a while and had just gotten back online. It was the rebirth of something wonderful. We exchanged long emails and we had long talks on the phone. It was one of those weird things that you can be friends and not see each other for 30+ years and just take back up where you left off.

However, now our conversations were deeper and more meaningful. We shared are joys and sorrows of where life’s path had taken us. The grandiose life that I had a imagined Pattie lived, was just that… in my imagination. She, like a lot of us, had many wonderful moments and good times in life fringed with heartache and disappointments. The deeper conversations got, the more it became clear that our childhoods were also even more intertwined than we knew. My childhood perception of her perfect life behind the lollipops and candy canes was not reality.

So we stayed connected, sometimes months between calls and e-mails but always at Christmas, my birthday and always, always St Patty’s Day . One year on my birthday I got a card and inside were several pictures of the candy canes and lollipops in Holly Hills. On the back Pattie wrote, “Here Trish thought you’d like these.” Not quite as my childhood eyes remembered but a great gift just the same.

In 2006, we finally got together. Pattie came to Seattle we had a fabulous week together, we took the ferry to the islands, we toured Pikes Place market, we went to the glass museum, we shopped, and we talked… long talks.

The next year in 2007, a friend whose daughter had just moved to Texas, and I went to see Pattie in Seabrook/Kemah. She was living there and loved the laid back beach life, loved the people and breezy atmosphere near the water.

Pattie and I talked last in December 2007; she said life had been hectic, she had lost her mom earlier in the year.  She told me when things settle down would have a long talk. It was our last Merry Christmas to each other.  March 2008 came and I sent her birthday greetings on the  17th but heard nothing. St Patty’s Day past; I tried to call, I tried to e-mail, but could not reach her. my birthday nothing, Christmas 2008 nothing.  Then it was St. Patty’s Day again…2009 and I had not heard from Pattie in over a year.  I knew something was not right. I searched the internet, went back to ‘Classmates’ left her message, left messages with others that I knew she stayed in contact with…. nothing. After weeks of searching, I found her obituary online. Gone… far too soon.

Heartbroken but eternally thankful for the time we had reconnected and the fabulous week we spent together in Seattle.  We changed, but had not changed.  Our path crossed for a second time in life and we could see more clearly, with adult eyes and no misconceptions about what formed our bond.

So, here it is St Patty’s Day again… but it is really Pattie Kay’s Day and will be forever to me.

The more things change the more they stay the same.

I’m going to put my two cents worth in on this latest controversy about the presidential candidates. Yes, I think this locker room talk is disgusting and has no place for discussions in running for the Office of the President of United States; but lest the current set of outraged critics forget… we lived through Bill Clinton and his sexual escapades in the 90s. This is NOT the first ‘too much information event’ that has come from the Office of the President. During that time, I also had to quickly change the channel because of Bill’s dallying around the Whitehouse. Ever try to give an explanation to a 5 year who asked about oral sex and what the president was doing with a cigar that was bad?

Just imagine what he might get up to (in the halls and back rooms) if Hill-babe is busy running the country.

Toss them all out!!! Can we please find a honorable, honest, decent human being and leader for this country?

Sadly, I wonder if there are any left. Surely none that want to subject their families to the media vultures and social media firestorm that spread lies and rumors that quickly become ‘truth’ to many after being repeated and shared through the ether.

I wish it was over. I am sick of the process, the talking heads, the candidates and power hungry. I wish they’d get over themselves and go away.

As I said before we are going to get what we deserve for turning this process into a game of fools. I fear the mighty will fall if we don’t wake up soon

Raindrops and Tears

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A grey rainy drizzly day and I’m all tucked in my nest reflecting on the the year nearly finished and season ahead.

Mindlessly I switch the TV to a movie, ‘My Sister’s Keeper.” It was loosely based on a story about the family who conceived a daughter to save their older daughter who had leukemia. In that family everything turned out well. In this movie they delved deeper into issues and conflicts of that decision.

There are so many sides to the issue and although I could empathize with the mother in this movie, I could see how she had lost her way through this familiar battle.

When you have a child at deaths door, you never want to give up. You are the warrior. You will do whatever it takes to fight for your child. You will stand guard. You will search for every medical intervention. You will stand your ground with nurses and doctors. You will repeat your child’s story over and over until someone hears. You will stay up nights and listen to their every breath. You will not care what the establishment thinks of you. You will never give up hope because the alternative is to painful to face.

This mother had to face the fact that shear will, endurance, strength, love, and denial would not keep her daughter alive.

The tears begin flowing like the rain outside. Not only because it was sad that the daughter died but because the mother, try as she might, after all the years she spent caring, watching, battling, it was not enough. I felt her struggle, her defeat, her helplessness, her loss.

But what about those RED CUPS?

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Really, who is even upset about this? I keep hearing from the side that thinks it is ridiculous (as do I) but I’ve yet to see anyone who has complained.
Hey this is such a “non problem” it is hard to believe it is not a joke. I know lots of conservatives and lots of Christians and NONE of them give a hoot whether there are snowflakes on the dang cups.
Honestly, this a prime example of a “First World” non-problem that someone thinks it deserves attention. I looked up “who complained” and it looks like it started with some self-proclaimed conservative blogger. Someone who does not speak for me, nor do I think he speaks for conservatives, or Christians, or liberals. He’s just a person with an opinion.
I’m not at “War on Christmas” and yet, I don’t send Christmas cards via our business. ((Horrors))) I send Thanksgiving cards because it is a truly American Holiday and we have so much to be thankful for. I REPEAT; we have so much to be thankful for!!
Sadly, it is not just this issue, but so many other unimportant things that people are complaining about that is wrong with America… again, I say really this is worth all this uproar?   America has some issues because we are made of humans…many different kinds of humans with vast differences in our backgrounds and experiences, but we are working it out day by day. We humans are fallible and we are changing and growing, so give each other the benefit of the doubt. Be more accepting and understanding.
Every day I see things that I could take offense to, things I don’t agree with or believe in. And yes, there are some things important enough to speak out about; speak out about respectfully. However, if we don’t stop doing this, taking offense to Every, Little, Thing, and if we don’t try understanding and accepting our differences, we will tear apart everything that is good in America.
Better than our faults, there is so much right about America it could fill a library. We have people from every race and nation on the globe; freedom of religion; freedom of speech; we are generous; we are fair (to a fault); we have the breadbasket of the world within our borders; we have opportunities; we have mountains and oceans; vast plains and beaches; lakes and rivers; cities and farms; grocery stores and food banks; homes and shelters; buses and cars; and by gosh coffee shops, with hot coffee in red cups.
In this month of Thanksgiving, please give thanks for it all.

BEAR

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I love my little piece of paradise; it’s nestled in the tall trees, across the road from the river, at the base of Mount Si.

My yard is mostly wild, but some landscaping with flowers, bamboo and fruit trees. There is a little pear tree that produces, maybe, one pear a year and a crabapple tree that produces a bounty of tart little apples consistently year after year. Not eating apples for us humans, but over the years I have enjoyed watching the animals as they wonder through the yard enjoy the bounty from this little tree…rabbits, and raccoons, opossums (shudder), deer and the elk.
 

For a few years there was a deer with two fawns that would wander through and eat the fallen apples, after they were gone she’d try to reach for the ones on the low branches. One day Chris went outside and moved slowly towards the tree. Amazingly enough, the deer must have known what he had planned, because even though she moved away, she didn’t go far. Chris shook the tree lightly and a few apples fell. She moved back in with her fawns and ate them as Chris watched nearby. He moved closer, and she stayed closer, as he shook the tree again. This scene repeated itself many days over the next few weeks. Deer eating what had fallen to the ground, and patiently waiting as Chris increased the supply.

 Once the elk group, almost too small to call a herd usually 13 -20, came through the yard. There was a bit of a battle over the apples. Some of the larger elk could reach the apples on the low branches and the ones on the ground were being eaten by the others. When the large elk could find no more in the tree, he soon decided he would dominate the ones one the ground. He lowered his antlers and chased the others away. He’d go back to eating, then chase intruders again as they got close. Occasionally another elk would get a few before he’d get around the tree again.

Just a little side story here too. The elk eat my garden as well. They love daffodils, roses, bamboo, bulbs of any kind which they pull up by the roots and tomatoes. I resorted to having a patio of flowers and potted tomatoes but that did not deter Mr. Elk who we once caught on camera with his head and huge rack learning over onto the patio to get the newly ripened cherry tomatoes. Sigh… but the way I see it they were here first and they give me much more pleasure than they take.

So that’s how it would go, year after year, the little apple tree providing food for my forest friends and they providing enjoyment for me. It remained my little bit of paradise.

Then a few years ago, I noticed another forest creature was enjoying the fruit from the crabapple tree. Not that I saw it but because it left a nice little surprise outside my door. I used my “super tracker” instincts which told me it had been eating apples. It was Bear!

Mr (or Ms) Bear was not as sweet to have around. Yes the elk ate the roses, but Bear turned over the trash and Bear came onto the patio and dumped an entire kettle of peanut oil. Bear once dragged an entire bag of fertilizer onto the edge of the lawn and ripped it open; must have thought there would be a nice treat inside but was disappointed I am sure. One great benefit from that is that the weeds and blackberries grow beautifully there now. All the same, my mind was set to be more cautious of Bear and when he might be around.

So time goes on and last year the deer arrived on schedule as the apples began to fall. After a warm sunny summer, the tree was full of apples. Everything was as usual in my little corner of paradise, until one afternoon I returned home and found small broken limbs and leaves covering the ground under the apple tree. My first thought was that the elk were here trying to reach the lower branches but really didn’t think much beyond that. The next evening I returned home and my little apple tree was leaning over on the ground, uprooted, main branches snapped and the tree nearly destroyed! What on earth? I went to my security cameras and there it was — Bear!!

He had climbed my little apple tree to greedily get every apple he could. He ventured out onto the little branches near the top; they broke easily under his weight of probably 400 pounds or more. Then as he continued to climb, he uprooted my little tree and it fell over. After which, Bear, ate all the apples off the tree.

Sad, but after all he is a wild bear; he and his ancestors were here before me and my apple tree as well. Saddest part of all was that even though we propped the little apple tree back up and sealed the open wound from the broken branch (actually half the tree as it was broken at the “Y” in the trunk), my little apple tree did not produce fruit this year. Therefore, none of the wildlife benefited from its free fruit. All because Bear was greedy (or very hungry) and wanted more and more…he wanted it all. I know Bear did not have the conscious to know his greed; he was after all just a bear but his actions destroyed the food supply just the same.

Now I come to the real reason I am writing this story. This morning as I left for work, I looked over at my poor little apple tree and wondered how many years it would take for it to recover and produce its tart little crabapples again. I thought about Bear and his actions and wondered if there was an analogy here, a lesson to be learned. Whether it be the fish taken from the ocean, the fossil fuels, the trees downed in the rain forest or the way money is used and wasted in running the country. Does there come a time when it is discovered that we have destroyed the very thing that provides our needs because of our desire to want more, take more, and use more? Is it time to rethink the giving and taking? Should there be more thought about not taking more than we need just because it there and recognizing that at some point there will be nothing left to give? There is a provision to use and share, however, there should be an awareness and knowledge that unless there is planning and conserving, next year the cycle may not repeat and continued benefit for all, will be lost.